I'm back?
Hello fellow Deviants... it has been a very long time. Since I last posted here I've gotten married, moved cities, bought a house, had a couple of kids, caught and survived the dreaded 'rona. It's been a lot! And I have let this page gather a lot of dust. Why have I ignored the creative part of me that yearns to be free? I think it was due to a lot of things. Postpartum depression, low self-esteem, and echoes of negative people in my head who told me I'd never amount to anything, that my art is worthless, just to name a few. But I'm over hiding my light under a bush. I have been ignoring the most essential part of myself and I am miserable for it. I reflect and realize I would be so much further along as an artist if only I had given myself over to practice, to humble myself enough to learn. To accept that I won't be amazing overnight, but with enough hard work I could one day be the type of artist I have come to admire.
All of this is to say that I plan to revamp and renew this gallery from the ground up. I haven't decided if I'm going to delete most of my old deviations yet. But so many of them were created just to "put something out there", and I am not proud of anything in here, really. Except maybe my Wolverine vector, which scored me 110% in my Graphic Communications class. Seriously. That one made me so proud!
I plan to put my best works out there now, for criticism and, maybe one day, coin. Bear with me as I figure out who I am as an artist and a creator, because I have missed this community so much.
Things Lately
The last month and a bit has been really tough on me, and I've been taking a lot of time to process things. I was fired from my job as a graphic designer and still haven't been able to find new work, due to the move my boyfriend is trying to make. Around the time I lost my job, my boyfriend decided he wanted to move up within his company and requested to be transferred to a different shop (he is a Service Advisor for a major tire company). The last month has pretty much been a whirlwind of town viewings, packing, and prayer. Ultimately I think we are going to wind up on Vancouver Island, which is pretty far from home and scares the crap out of me.
But this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for me to finally move out of my comfort zone and try something new with the love of my life. I don't know what job opportunities await me on the other side...I feel like I may have to give up graphic design as a full-time career, which saddens me to no end. But my last experience in the industry really soured me against it and I'm willing to see what else is out there before I try it as a profession again.
On the bright side I did a logo for a major tattoo artist's shop here in my city... and he loved it so much, he plans on hiring me again
I definitely intend on freelancing whenever I can.Anyway... I probably won't have much internet access for at least a month starting in September, but I will be checking in whenever I can. Wish me luck........
Tough Tidings
Life got real for me today...when I was fired from my graphic design job.
I should have seen it coming, and in truth I kind of did...it just comes as a slap in the face when money is extremely tight and my lease is up at the end of August.
I did my best at my job and tried to get it together enough for them to want to keep me...but in the end, it wasn't good enough. I have felt disconnected from my workplace for a while, but I didn't realize they felt the same way about me.
I was having a good day; by the end of it, I was handed a week's severance pay and a "good luck."
They left me on good terms, and promised I have a reference in them...but it doesn't change the fact that I was just fired for the first time in my life today.
I feel like such a failure. I cannot afford to not work, and I am also terrified.
.....on the bright side, I saw How to Train Your Dragon 2 and it was lovely.
Discouraged
Life life life
I've just been getting more and more into Game of Thrones and writing lately. I've been applying for new jobs like crazy with a writing/marketing kind of vibe to them. I'm sincerely hoping something comes my way!
Exciting things are happening with The Boyfriend and I as well (nooo, not a ring XD). It involves moving and stuff
We'll see how that all goes!Ehhh.... not much more to report... YAY SUMMER