I have no online journals anywhere else, so I'm going to write and process this here.
Life got real for me today...when I was fired from my graphic design job.
I should have seen it coming, and in truth I kind of did...it just comes as a slap in the face when money is extremely tight and my lease is up at the end of August.
I did my best at my job and tried to get it together enough for them to want to keep me...but in the end, it wasn't good enough. I have felt disconnected from my workplace for a while, but I didn't realize they felt the same way about me.
I was having a good day; by the end of it, I was handed a week's severance pay and a "good luck."
They left me on good terms, and promised I have a reference in them...but it doesn't change the fact that I was just fired for the first time in my life today.
I feel like such a failure. I cannot afford to not work, and I am also terrified.
.....on the bright side, I saw How to Train Your Dragon 2 and it was lovely.